Visions of Hell
Thoughts in my mind collide
Praying to obtain peacefulness
And my cowardice too great to seek the truth
Drowning in this ocean of misery
In death would I cease to exist
The mere idea of torturous thoughts for eternity
Artwork: Ghostship by Cookie Webpage by SS
... Shirley 9/8/01
Twisting, circling, unrelenting.
Wondering if they will ever subside
And if I am a victim unconsenting.
Looking inward, outward, upward, downward
If only the thoughts would desist
Serenity would be my just reward
Aware the seeds I've sown are mine to reap
Not only to others but to myself uncouth
Who, oh, who would want my soul to keep
Unsure whether to fight to survive
Pondering the extent of my debauchery
With neverending thoughts of suicide
Void of thoughts and emptied mind?
Perhaps "hell" is when in death thoughts persist
With the inability to act on solutions I finally find.
And the realization that it is a step of no return
Quickly and safely usher me back to sanity
With an understanding tranquility is mine to earn.
Sounding by
9/8/01